Patches had a seizure

And I feel like bawling like a baby.

I am so scared for him. I know that he feels better now, but I am still worried.

He was out on a walk with my mom and her friend noticed when he looked up at her and then started to walk kinda funny like he was going to fall over. Mom picked him up before he did fall over, and carried him home. I'd just finished loading up my supper plate and she got home, looking worried.

She asked me to hold him so she could move her truck, and he. was. lethargic. He just flopped down in my arms. I started to cry because I was so scared. I am going to take him to the vet tomorrow. Even though he seems better now.

Hopefully, it won't be a new, continual thing.

We are hoping that it may just have been caused by him either

a) eating weeds that were sprayed with weed killer (which we will keep him away from- it's in the garden so we never thought anything of it).

or

b) he may or may not have eaten an ant... that may or may not have been poisoned... and that miniscule amount of poison could have triggered it, (we had some ant-infested pieces of wood on the side of the house, and the ants started to come into the house. Mom sprayed the yard with ant killer and poison, and they have still been coming in the house, though more in the basement than the kitchen. I killed one when I went upstairs to use the washroom last night, and because I just got back downstairs and wanted to get back to bed, I left it there till morning. (Tired + LAZY = NO GOOD.)

When I got up, the was-definitely-dead-when-I-left-it ant was gone. I didn' really think much of it. Then, later, I saw a dried up yellow spot on Patches' bed in the living room, and washed his blanket. I never thought anything of the fact that he'd been sick. He was also really babyish today, more than usual. He was pawing at my leg, more of a tapping/patting than his usual scratch or stretch. He wanted to be picked up. A lot. I never really thought about it.

Back to the abc's,

c) it could be just about anything. Who knows? That's why I am bringing him to the vet.

Sigh.

Now both me and him have to go see our doctors tomorrow.

Hopefully we will both get good news.

TAK.

Hmm. Female Part Issues V.2.0

As in my posts from March 22 and 23rd of this year, I am having more female part issues. I will be making an appointment with the doctor as soon as his office opens tomorrow.

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Here's the run down.

Back when I was a teenager (Years ago...), my period used to be 40-42 days... (5 days of hell- really bad cramps and heavy flow. lots of pms. caffeine was very bad to ingest before each cycle began because it made the cramps worse.)

Then I went on the pill (BCP) for a few years, and my flow was a little lighter, slightly less cramps, but for the most part it was a bad idea. I think that it was my ingestion of hormone pills that triggered the anxiety, and the pills I took for that triggered the depression.

When I stopped taking the BCP, my anxiety almost completely went away. Changing meds also helped.

Now, I am still on anti-depressants for anxiety, and have issues with depression that I am sure causes lots of stress for those around me (say it with me, people: mood swings). I also take daily antihistamines, so that I can actually live. (I am gradually getting more and more allergic to everything).

Now, I am dealing with having my period every, oh, 60 ish days. (Don't even think of saying that I shouldn't be complaining). Today is 55 days.

I have been informed that it sounds like I might have ovarian cysts (from someone I know)... but who knows?

Gonna go help make invitations for a grande pooh-bah celebration a la August long weekend.

We just flip flop all over the place.

How about, instead of telling you where we've decided to go, I will just mass email everyone once we've moved, informing them of our destination.

We are thinking about Hinton again, already.

Great job opportunity for Chris, again... that's why we moved here...

HMMM...

Changed our minds

As much as we'd love to move to Hinton, and live so close to the mountains, and a cutey-patootie baby... We changed our minds. After lots of discussions and a few sort of arguments... Chris and I have decided Edmonton would be best.

I plan to go to school, and distance learning may be okay for some, but it is not recommended for post-secondary education, at least not in reference to child care and education.

Also, Chris may have more opportunities in Edmonton for his present employer. Not to mention he could go to school, too!

Besides, then we will be in a more "both families" centralized location. (Well, soon, anyway.)

Oh, yeah. I find it kinda funny that Chris and I aren't even engaged, let alone married, or ready to have children, but I am starting to feel the pressure... (Mom, your hints aren't as subtle as you'd think -> fyi check out her comment on "I don't know what to write")

Anyway. :)

Might be in Edmonchuck this weekend, looking for apartments 4 my brudder.

Might not be. It's kind of a bad weekend, the LOOOOOOONG weekend, and I don't know if most places will be open on the weekend. Also, we were thinking of asking my Aunt if we could crash at their place if we decided to stay overnight, and I found out they will be in Cold Lake for the weekend.

Not sure... What to do... If we are going... Or not?

I would kinda like to just have time off and not do anything.

Oh, and thinking about getting a different job. I don't mind this one, just need more money/hours. I could work for the same wage, and I wouldn't care, it's the full time hours I was promised that I am upset at not having. (Was told 40 hrs. Haven't gotten more than 32)... Pretty drastic difference.

Going to go to Canada's favorite coffee place, and see if he's still got the position open that is advertised. Not sure if he'll want to hire me.

Anyway. If I get that job, I will cut back the hours of this one, but not drop it completely. More money!

Still would want at least one day off each week.

Tired. Gonna go crash.

:) TAK

Happy Mother's Day!

To all mother's out there.

Hope today and everyday you realize how important you are. Not just to your children, but to your spouses, friends, parent. To the rest of the world. Where would we be without you?

:)

So, to all the Mom's I know: You ROCK!!!

Lots of love, hugs and squishes,

Blaine

Hmmm

Since I kinda liked just babbling about what I am currently doing, and I saw/heard that Chris got a kick out of it, I may continue...

Listening to: Chris giggling while he reads prior posts. specifically the part where I said what I was going to do, then immediately wrote what I was actually going to do...

Oh, and listenning to the tv commercials playing, on Spike TV. Love CSI...

Thinking about: Uploading lots of pictures.

going to go upload pix. been wanting to. lots

I don't know what to write

So I am contemplating not writing anything.

But I am still writing...

Hmm...

Are you there?

Current fave song: Evanescence, "Anywhere"

Current thought: need to go to bed. Making too many typing mistakes. Using the delete button too much tonight. Hand hurts... no real reason.

Need to do some of my laundry... stuff I haven't even unpacked from the move... Need more socks.

"Forget this life, come with me, don't look back, you're safe now"

- "Anywhere", Evanescence

Freakin' awesome. Love it. To death, and back again.

Tired. Chris will be home soon, laundry is done in the wash now, so I can go put it in the dryer and go to bed now!!!

Yay!

->Holy crap. just noticed how big all my arm muscles are getting again... Kinda creepy. (Kinda, shhhh, man-ish). I haven't really lost any weight, if you go by numbers on the scale, since starting this job, but I have lost fat. I think I am building muscle fast enough to make up the difference. Kinda annoying, but then again, the more muscle I have, the more fat-burning I can do...

And it's not too creepy for me to be able to lift 50+ pounds easily, is it?

TAK

What I am doing

Not much.

Listenning to: "Anywhere" by Evanescence. (LOVE THIS SONG!!!)
Looking at: my hands as I type.
Thinking about: Going to bed. Moving to Hinton.
Wondering: How I can type 'so fast' yet not be able to do so without looking at my hands?
Also Wondering: if anyone reads this anymore?
Thinking: if anyone does read this, they are probably peeved that I haven't really updated in awhile.
Feeling: tired, dehydrated. I noticed since spring has started, I have been having more days with medication side effects than not. (Dry mouth = pasties, yuck)
Thinking: that I should delete that last statement...
Wanting: to sing at the top of my lungs
Wondering: if the ground beef I pulled out earlier is still on the counter thawing upstairs
Going to: put on another song
Actually going to: go to bed.

TAK

P>S> 4 those who knew: Chris is home! (went to EDM for training Sunday-weds...)

:)

Not much going on here

Just some ghostly knocking every night on my bedroom door.

Nothing serious. Nothing creepy. It really doesn't bother me, but I think it keeps Chris awake. I don't notice it because I wear earplugs, plus we have the fan going. (I am a light sleeper, and without them, even the slightest noises keep me awake.)

Had a cool convo with my Across The Street Aunt (A.T.S. Aunt), Mel, and my Mom on Sunday night, about ghosts, and spirits, and strange occurances, etc.

But, until I have more time, and am a little more conscious, I will leave it at that.

Hope life is good elsewhere.

Let me know.

T.A.K.