Going Home

I am going home tomorrow!!!

Yay! I get to see everybody!

Oh, I can't wait, AND... I get to stay, 2 whole nights!!!!!

I don't even know what to write, I am so excited...

I am going to visit Pookie, and take Patches out for a good run!!!

And everyone is getting a HUGE HUG!!!!!!!

But I need to go now! Food and Sleep, await!!!

I love you all! See you tomorrow!!!

Me!

A good day!

Hello out there.

I hope that everyone had a great day, and cannot wait to see my family next weekend!

Today, I woke up late, and putzed around for a few hours,then at around 1 oclock decided to have a shower after Chris' parents called to say they would be here within a couple of hours...

Yeah, so in about an hour, Chris and I completely cleaned and organized the house, and so now I can see the bedroom floor, and the kitchen table. It is kind of scary.

And, go figure, it has been 5 months since we've lived here, and Christmas is the first time we actually use the kitchen table.

But when we move, we will definitely keep it cleaner. The townhouse is larger in square footage, not including the basement. And it is much more accessible. One block from my job, and same to the main LRT station for the area, which is where the other two will need to go to get to their jobs, which are on the route of the LRT. If that made any sense at all.

And there is lots of shopping nearby, and that makes life real easy...

Yeah. We just need to get our crap together and apply.

:)

Moi.

I finally had a real day off today. Except for the fact that I was going to go in at 10 to open the doors so the other workers can enter... but was called after I was on the way, my boss came in, so I wasn't needed. It was nice.

So I putzed around all day, and we went out and had a great supper at Chili's where I have never been. I had a good steak, it was delicious, but only because of its superb marbling (Ribeye) and quality. The marbling I spoke of was also LOTS AND LOTS of fat. And this was the leanest of the two cuts I was deciding between. But still one of the best steaks I have ever had.

Nothing tops Dad's cooking though!

And I get to see my Mommy tomorrow! Good stuff all around!

I am going to go though. We are going to watch a movie, and then go to sleep...

Me.

My Boo...

...came to see me today...

I was at work, and no customers were around, just my boss, Dave and I were talking... I was telling him about Pookie, and the horrible experience that resulted in her physical life being taken away, and mine being changed forever. This, also, was right after I finally published the last blog, during which I cried, a lot. It wouldn't publish properly last night when it was written, so I did it today at work.

Anyway, I was telling him about her, and all of a sudden one of the tables that we stack out lots of deals onto started to shake as if someone had tripped into it. It made us both jump, as it was 10 feet away, and there was NO ONE around. I immediately went behind it to see if there was another reason, and neither of us could find one.

I believe that it was a sign that Pookie came to see me, to let me know that it's okay.

And even if it was something reasonable, like the floor shifting, which it shouldn't be to that extent, I don't care. I KNOW that Boo was with me today.

I also had a lot of deja vu today. More than normal. Thought that was interesting too.

Gonna go, have to prepare notes for the meeting I am doing on Saturday.

Thanks for visiting, Baby Girl, I love you, I miss you, I can't wait to see you again. Please give me signs more often.

Love, Me (the blond girl that gave really good scratches and massages).

The Stare That Breaks Me

I miss my family, I miss setting up the Christmas tree, which I don't even know if they did. I miss the daily anticipation, as it gets closer to Christmas morning, even as we get older, and we spend less on gifts, and more thought on spending more time together.

I miss the smell of decorations, the look of the tree at night when it is the only light, besides the tv, and the sound of the Christmas carols that Mom likes to play.

There's times at work when I am just about to cry because they insist on our playing Christmas music from Dec 1-25. The thought of spending Christmas Day with anyone besides my Mom, Dad, Sister, Brother, and Patches, well, it breaks my heart. It also reminds me that Pookie will not be there, and I don't care if other people are sick of hearing about me missing her. You know what? I loved, and still love her. I saw her get killed, and felt like it was my fault because I opened the door. But that doesn't matter to me. Because she may be gone, physically, but I know she is still here. She still visits me. I pray for her, and to her. I ask her to watch over my family, because I can't. Because I can't visit them, I ask her to. And all of this together is going to make me cry. I have been waiting for an opportunity to set up my tree, but I don't know if I want to. We don't really have room, and I am getting depressed already.

I have been thinking about this a lot lately, and have been leaning towards going to C.L. for Christmas, but I may be going alone if I do go. C will be spending the 25th with his parents, and the day before, and probably after too. J probably has to work. I kinda wanted to leave Christmas eve after work, and go to C.L., and leave either 25th night or 26th morning, but I don't want to drive in those conditions by myself. And it looks like neither can go with me for New Years either.

I miss my family so much. I am only three hours away, and it is so rare that I see them anymore.

I am sick of going down for so quick of a visit, that Patches will barely, kind of, not really, warm up to me again, and I leave again and he gives me the LOOK. The stare that breaks my heart.

Patches, I wish I could stay. I really do.

But I am going to go to bed now, so that I do not end up late for work. Big visit by head honchos tomorrow.

Yay.

If I don't get to see you guys, Merry Christmas. I am sending all of my love, hugs, squishes...

I wish I could be there, and bringing dirt pie.

Now that I am older, I want to go to the family get togethers and can't.

argh. Theya, it doesn't get easier. Feel blessed to live the good life right now.

I will talk to you all again soon.

To sum it up, lots of hours

Wow.

99 hours. That is how many I have worked since November 29th. And I have yet 36 to go. In three days time.

My head is going to hurt come Christmas, but especially this time of year, we are going to need the money, and particularily because our lease is up at this place, and we were looking at getting something cheaper... or at least more transportation accessible.

We are looking at some townhouses that are 1 block away from my new store, up by 140th Ave and 42nd Street, and should be cheaper, especially if I don't need to have my car running every day!!! That would be awesome. And it is right near the end of the line for the LRT station, and would make it easier for both my roommates to get to work than if we moved somewhere else.

It is near a grocery store, lots of major roads, some serious shopping areas, like COSTCO!!! And, also blockbuster, Roger's Video, There's banks, and like 3 Tim Horton's, and I haven't yet seen a McD's besids the one in the W/M that I refuse to visit, because it is evil. My boss made me accompany him there to buy some stuff for the store, and it reminded me why I dislike it so much...

Wow, rambling!!!!

Going to go, it is 2 a.m. and I have to get up at 7ish, to leave for work at about 7:45ish, so I can put in lots of freaking hours today too...

Wish me luck, and hopefully soon some sleep. I am off on Sunday, and I think I will throw away batteries from clocks that day. And shut off the electricity. Or maybe just the alarms.

Anyway...

Me.

Soon I will be rewriting a long emotional blog that I had written a few days ago. When I tried to save it, it erased it all, so I gave up. It seems all of my really emotional ones do that.

But alas, there will be another day.

To sum it up:

I miss you, Pookie
I miss you, Family,
I miss being home,
I miss feeling home
I miss my car
I love my Family, All of it,
I am proud of my family
I am glad to be a part of my family,
I am glad to have such a great family,
I love Pookie, and her baby boy, Patches
I can't wait to go to bed now.

this cat is bored

Some cats work, some cats play.

We are now overstaffed at my job. Isn't that great?

Oh, well.

I am still working 72 hours a week, just so I can get a decent paycheck.

Long hours+ not much sleep= cranky me

It's fun though. ANyway... gago.

moi

The new me is trying to come out...

Today, I am a salesperson.

I am no longer a merchandiser, and now work up in Clareview. According to what I am being told by my new Manager, I will be the Assistant Manager come January, if I don't return to merchandising, which I very may not. Depending on what the salary is...

YAY! Hopefully this is a successful Christmas, because I could really use the cash!!!

But, anyway, I have a touch of a headache, and am going to chug some water before finally going down to the gym! First time since we moved in!!!!

I am back!!! It's quite a bit later. All I did is go on the treadmill for a little while, but my legs were not happy afterwards. Because our apartment is only 1 floor down from the gym, we took the stairs, and my legs cramped very badly, even after stretching, and cooling down, and it took a lot of effort, and a lot of pain to get down the stairs.

I had to go down sideways, and use my arms to lessen the amount of weight on my legs.

I am going to be one hurting unit tomorrow.

But it felt good to be there, and I am sure I will sleep good tonite. And, Mom, be proud, I will be going back. Lots. I want to be in shape!!!! Even if it means eventually going every nite!!!

And, in the new year, I am going to enroll into either Tai Chi or Yoga, and maybe both, if they're not too expensive, and if I can find time. It will be easier after January 1st. Business will be very slow.

Anyway, I am going to go have a shower and then maybe go to bed... Get some good sleep.

Goodnight,

Me.

From new baby to new doctor

I went to see Theya today, and she, Chair, Jason, and my sister Joy all got to meet my boyfriend, Chris. Yay!

Job didn't seem to care, and he ended up biting me!!! I'm not sure if he was trying to play or what, but he ended up scratching up my hand a little bit.

Even as bad as my right eye had gotten to be very irritated because of my allergies to the kitty, it is much better now. Although I had a shower, and felt better, and went shopping, when I came back, my throat started to swell up, and I had to take my athsma puffer, and coughed enough to make my throat raw. Nice and painful.

Need to find me a good femily doctor in Edmonton, and also need to find a good acupuncturist, masseuse, reiki healer...

I have thought about looking into breast reduction surgery, and just really need to talk to a doctor because I always flip flop back and forth between what I feel about it at any given time...

I don't know.

Gonna go,

Me

The Animals need help.

Today, life is god.

Except for the fact that the keyboard I am typing on doesn't type so great. That is why it says 'god' and not 'good'.

I am presently watching a tv show about cops in the states that go around and deal with people who are cruel to animals, called Animal Precinct. They just charged a guy with 6 counts of animal cruelty, because he neglected to seek medical care for them when they were hit by a car. They can't put pressure on their legs, and need extensive therapy and maybe surgery. That sucks.

I want a pupy. Well, maybe a PUPPY, NOT A PUPY...

But I don't think I could deal with one right now.

Especially financially, so I won't even think of it.

But I have some stuff to do, and will return to write later.

Me.