Sitting around...

Today, I called in to work because I haven't been feeling well.

As a result of this miserable feeling, I ended up sleeping until 3 fricking p.m. I felt so bad about it, that I cleaned the kitchen, marinated the roast I had pulled out, and also thawed some bacon, maybe to have for supper tonite...

Je ne sais pas...

I mean, I don't know...

I have an overwhelming feeling to do the housewife thing. I want to stay home and clean, and cook, and then clean up the mess I made by cooking...

And then maybe babysit Chair's adoralicious baby, now available for viewing on her website.

I am not entirely sure what to do now...

I also think I want to go to school to become a teacher, and am trying to concentrate on not feeling nervous about it...

This is so stupid, I am 21 and not sure what I want to do, and scared to make any kind of decision. I feel that it is stupid, but have just been told that it isn't.

We are moving to a townhouse up in Clareview, NE Edmonton... there is LOTS of places to go for jobs, and random other schtuff...

As if that wasn't enough of a hint, I am going to be actively looking for another job.

Just can't make it with what I am making presently.

Oh, yeah. My 1990 Ford Tempo... STILL DEAD. We haven't been able to get it started, and Chris has spent many many hours trying. LOTS. To the point that I feel bad... And I want to kick the car. Again. I mean, I didn't kick it in frustration already, what are you talking about?

I still haven't had it towed, nor have I found a place I want to bring it to.

I have been taking the LRT to work, and sometimes Chris comes to pick me up.
The only part that sucks is the walk from work to the LRT station. It will be fine when it is warmer, but lately the wind is very, very cold. It cuts right through whatever I wear! I blame the open fields nearby, and lack of big tall buildings like I have become used to, living downtown where at night, I can't even see the top of nearby buildings as a result of the fog from the river!

It is beautiful. I love the river, and that will be the main thing I am going to miss. Especially in the spring. Go figure that is when we are moving. Oh, well. I can take the LRT down to visit it, I guess...

And I kind of feel bad that we are moving VERY NE from Central, when Chris just got promoted to a position based in VERY SE. We tested the drive, it is 26 kilometers, and almost 30 minutes, on a highway. He is going to have quite the commute. Twice a day.

I wish life was simpler. I think that is why I am reluctant to care about getting my car fixed. And I told my Mom to sell my other car, 2003 Cavalier. I love that car, it was my baby. And I REALLY did not want to let anyone else drive it, even my family, let alone sell it. But I have made a decision that I need to get rid of it to be able to go to school. I also need to decide to look at the calendars for the diferent schools, and maybe even ask my cousin Craig if I can follow him around for a day. I will feel really dumb doing it, but I have to suck it up. It would be a lot of fun, and I am sure that I will learn a lot...

Lots to think about.

I am going to go buy bread, and some veggies and potatoes, so I can make some good suppers around here.

I almost wish I was rich. But not really.

I was about to write that I wish I was better with money, but instead of that, I am going to consciously decide to just be better. I am going to put more money on my bills, and pack lunches, and also to buy and eat more frut and veggies, and less pop and McD.

I hope I will stay inspired long enough to remember this. I usually re-read my posts a few days later, so I probably will.

Hope everyone else out there had a great weekend.

Love, me.