I have been sitting up, listening to random ring tunes on Rogers.ca, and because Chris mentioned I could make my own ring tunes, I have been fooling around with that idea... so far so good. It's easy! (If your phone has the capabilities to add data from a computer... other wise, don't know how)
But anyway, just listening to music, and thinking about what ring tones to use/make for some family members has made me homesick.
I basically try to avoid thinking about home (that's why I never call, sorry) because it makes me feel homesick and lonely. I am truly glad to hear a familiar voice whenever you guys call, and please don't get worried, I am fine...
Just felt like writing about it, is all.
I can't wait to see my big sisters new house, and wish I could have helped her move. I can't wait to just hang out with my whole family again, just be in the same house again. It's only Nov. 25, and I can't wait for Christmas now.
With all of the positive things that have come of our moving to Hinton, including a new friendship and 'niece', I knew that above all, I would miss my family. Just like I did in Edmonton. I just keep underestimating how bad it is until it gets here, you know? I catch a glimpse of a picture from Home and I feel a jerk in my heart...
Is it bad that I block out thoughts of home so that I won't get upset? Now that I think about it, it sure sounds bad...
Oh, well, whatever gets you through, right?
Fair warning: Just like Thanksgiving, when I come home for Christmas, I know I will cry. Not because I am upset or anything, just happy to be home. So bring an extra shirt.
:)
Love you all, and miss you terribly. Can't wait to see you at Christmas!
xoxoxo (x a lot more)
Blaine
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It is absolutely okay to feel tugs in your heart. That's a good thing. Imagine if you didn't feel it. We all like being missed. I once read somewhere that there is no such thing as "wrong feelings". Your feelings are never wrong, they are you. Never apologize for your feelings. We feel the way we do because of who we are and our experiences in our lives.
Miss everyone all you want and rejoice in it!
As people have been commenting on my blog, I mean bitch session, it's OK and it's GOOD to grieve. If you don't you will implode from the unexpressed emotion. I'm sure I'll be in exactly the same boat you are in in a very short time.
*sigh*
I'll hang in there if you do.
:^)
Glad to see you're posting again -and congrats on a better job! Nothing does a person good like feeling like you have something to do!
Thanks!
It's just hard to fall apart once a week crying, and just wanting to go home and sit on Mom and Dad's couch with Patches. Just to be home.
I kow it isn't good to bottle it up, and it's probably why I am so frustrated most of the time, but, I can't help but to try to push it away.
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