We are looking at some trailers in Edson, there is a brand new park that offers a discount on the lot rent if you buy from them, or it's more expensive if you buy a still newish slightly used trailer that was built the year before (plus the selling price is higher for the used because the sellers only bought it to make an extra few thousand when they sold it the year after. Bastards.)
It is fairly east, in a new development kind of area, and while we wouldn't be overjoyed about paying the lot rent forever, it's basically what we are looking for: a place to live where we can have Marley, that's in a decent area, in good condition (considering the brand new ones are much cheaper - all around - than the year old ones, we'd be going for that.) that we could stand to live in for a few years until we can "maybe" afford to build our own house. (We're ambitious.)
I get to drive up to Edson today to meet with a bank 'mortgage specialist' there and try to figure out all of this home-buying crap.
(It really sounds like one big headache to me. But I'm sure we'll figure it out eventually.)
:)
Oh, still loving the new job. Feel bad I might have to leave it right away, they wanted someone reliable and for long term. Damn.
Not much I can do, though, I don't want Chris to be exhausted working 6 days a week and having to drive when he admitted it was getting to be too much.
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Sunday, August 19, 2007
New job and moving's on the table
New job was great. I love it. It didn't seem like work, it was enjoyable and I got a lot of sunshine and fresh air. There are still a lot of bugs left to work out, seeing as how it is still fairly new... but it's good. I could get used to it, and the firehose, while fun, is not as hard as I was expecting.
But we are planning to move to Edson. Again.
For sure this time.
Soon.
But we are planning to move to Edson. Again.
For sure this time.
Soon.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Friday, August 17, 2007
New and Improved!
Now with a new job!
Yeah...
Starting on sunday (yeah I know- weird start date), I will be working at the new car wash in town. The owners are great, the woman - used to work at the Igg-ah with me - and her husband are planning on running it like a family business (because that's kind of what it is... a family owns it). There is a quick oil change place on the one side, and a 3-bay big-rig-sized-carwash on the other side. They can fit 3 big big big trucks or 6 regular vehicles in the bays.
It will be mostly days, and should be home by dinner time everyday... YAY!
And the best parts:
1- it's right next to a bunch of trees, -edge of the forest that surrounds the town- and there is apparently a group of little birds that have been hanging around the area that provide endless entertainment (running back and forth from a parked truck to behind the dumpster...)
2- I will get to use a fire hose that's hooked into the town's pressure to clean the bays, instead of using heated water from the wands. (Sounds like it will be fun, plus, a great workout - better than lifting watermelons at the tills...)
3- I won't just be sitting there, unless of course it is extremely slow, and I fully expect to get plenty of sunshine and fresh air, and a better workout than my previous job could ever allow. And, maybe in my downtime, if there is any, the bosses might let me take pictures of the surrounding nature and stuff...
4- Job security - I am the only full time person, and come wintertime, I will still have the same shifts and hours each week.
My only concern that I have is that nagging feeling I have in the back of my mind - this is the firs time I've put it into words - I am trying to be more green, more environmentally concious, and working for a place that uses as much water, chemical, and a fire hose to clean... I intend to try to cut down on the amount of fire hose time I absolutely need, but I know that the boss has the same OCD type of cleaning - no jokes about my house please* - as I do.
The Grande Opening is on the 25th, and they are planning a BBQ for customers, and plan to have a full day... Then, after the day is over, they plan to go back to their house and have a staff BBQ.
I might have to socialize. (Scares the crap out of me - not good at talking to people, but I am forcing myself to ask those little questions that get people talking. I think coming off of the pills helped to let me think on my own again. I feel so different off of them, that I am starting to realize that they were suppressing me.) But I will get through it, and people will probably think the same things about me that they all apparently do... They think I am friedly, outgoing, etc, when in reality, I am outgoing to cover up the shyness, if that makes sense. I make jokes, and usually - in my head - come off as a bit of a bitch.
I've also been working on my approachability. (Or the lack of.)
It is so creepy that after stopping taking these pills, I am slowly starting to, well, blossom, I guess. It's what it feels like. Slowly in the back of my mind, I am having thoughts that I think are more like real people. Not a medicated ball of nerves. I am less nervous, less paranoid. (So it was the pills!). (It also bothers me that there are so many people potentially being smothered by their pills, and they won't know it until they come off of them, IF they ever do.)
More confident, too. Self-assured. Before, I wouldn't have left the Igg-ah job because I'd feel like I was being a traitor or something. (How I've felt with past jobs I've left - intense guilt.)
AND, I have big news: On the trip to Cold Lake, (except for a brief moment while we were packing, where all I needed was a hug and an "it's okay" from Chris to alleviate the feeling)...
I HAD NO ANXIETY! None on the way there, none on the way back. This is HUGE for me!
Personal achievement. :)
Now I need to go clean.
*The OCD cleaning issues I have is not so much keeping the whole house completely tidy and sanitized at all times... It's that when I clean, I HAVE to clean very throroughly, and get distracted by other cleaning things... (I discovered it's not a good idea to clean the sink while I have food cooking, for instance. It took me about 20 minutes to clean the sink to my satisfaction, and the rice ended up boiling into a big sticky clump, with some burned to the bottom... Not pretty. One of the first things I've burned at home. (Kitchens with gas burners, it's easier to burn things... walk away for a second from that stirfry and BLACK!)
However, I am also more comfortable with having a clean house - junk and stuff wise - but it usually piles up and gets out of control - like a fire - and I never know where to start to get it all cleaned up. BUT IT DOES BUG ME! I am not messy, just lazy. Not much better.
Trying to do something about it. Going to clean the house today. Again. (It just takes so LONG, I end up halfway, take a break and forget to keep going.) Going to stop taking breaks, just plow through it!
:)
Can't wait to go to Cold Lake at the end of the month... see if the anxiety comes back at all! (Will be seeing more family, so it will be a great weekend!)
Off to the sink.
Yeah...
Starting on sunday (yeah I know- weird start date), I will be working at the new car wash in town. The owners are great, the woman - used to work at the Igg-ah with me - and her husband are planning on running it like a family business (because that's kind of what it is... a family owns it). There is a quick oil change place on the one side, and a 3-bay big-rig-sized-carwash on the other side. They can fit 3 big big big trucks or 6 regular vehicles in the bays.
It will be mostly days, and should be home by dinner time everyday... YAY!
And the best parts:
1- it's right next to a bunch of trees, -edge of the forest that surrounds the town- and there is apparently a group of little birds that have been hanging around the area that provide endless entertainment (running back and forth from a parked truck to behind the dumpster...)
2- I will get to use a fire hose that's hooked into the town's pressure to clean the bays, instead of using heated water from the wands. (Sounds like it will be fun, plus, a great workout - better than lifting watermelons at the tills...)
3- I won't just be sitting there, unless of course it is extremely slow, and I fully expect to get plenty of sunshine and fresh air, and a better workout than my previous job could ever allow. And, maybe in my downtime, if there is any, the bosses might let me take pictures of the surrounding nature and stuff...
4- Job security - I am the only full time person, and come wintertime, I will still have the same shifts and hours each week.
My only concern that I have is that nagging feeling I have in the back of my mind - this is the firs time I've put it into words - I am trying to be more green, more environmentally concious, and working for a place that uses as much water, chemical, and a fire hose to clean... I intend to try to cut down on the amount of fire hose time I absolutely need, but I know that the boss has the same OCD type of cleaning - no jokes about my house please* - as I do.
The Grande Opening is on the 25th, and they are planning a BBQ for customers, and plan to have a full day... Then, after the day is over, they plan to go back to their house and have a staff BBQ.
I might have to socialize. (Scares the crap out of me - not good at talking to people, but I am forcing myself to ask those little questions that get people talking. I think coming off of the pills helped to let me think on my own again. I feel so different off of them, that I am starting to realize that they were suppressing me.) But I will get through it, and people will probably think the same things about me that they all apparently do... They think I am friedly, outgoing, etc, when in reality, I am outgoing to cover up the shyness, if that makes sense. I make jokes, and usually - in my head - come off as a bit of a bitch.
I've also been working on my approachability. (Or the lack of.)
It is so creepy that after stopping taking these pills, I am slowly starting to, well, blossom, I guess. It's what it feels like. Slowly in the back of my mind, I am having thoughts that I think are more like real people. Not a medicated ball of nerves. I am less nervous, less paranoid. (So it was the pills!). (It also bothers me that there are so many people potentially being smothered by their pills, and they won't know it until they come off of them, IF they ever do.)
More confident, too. Self-assured. Before, I wouldn't have left the Igg-ah job because I'd feel like I was being a traitor or something. (How I've felt with past jobs I've left - intense guilt.)
AND, I have big news: On the trip to Cold Lake, (except for a brief moment while we were packing, where all I needed was a hug and an "it's okay" from Chris to alleviate the feeling)...
I HAD NO ANXIETY! None on the way there, none on the way back. This is HUGE for me!
Personal achievement. :)
Now I need to go clean.
*The OCD cleaning issues I have is not so much keeping the whole house completely tidy and sanitized at all times... It's that when I clean, I HAVE to clean very throroughly, and get distracted by other cleaning things... (I discovered it's not a good idea to clean the sink while I have food cooking, for instance. It took me about 20 minutes to clean the sink to my satisfaction, and the rice ended up boiling into a big sticky clump, with some burned to the bottom... Not pretty. One of the first things I've burned at home. (Kitchens with gas burners, it's easier to burn things... walk away for a second from that stirfry and BLACK!)
However, I am also more comfortable with having a clean house - junk and stuff wise - but it usually piles up and gets out of control - like a fire - and I never know where to start to get it all cleaned up. BUT IT DOES BUG ME! I am not messy, just lazy. Not much better.
Trying to do something about it. Going to clean the house today. Again. (It just takes so LONG, I end up halfway, take a break and forget to keep going.) Going to stop taking breaks, just plow through it!
:)
Can't wait to go to Cold Lake at the end of the month... see if the anxiety comes back at all! (Will be seeing more family, so it will be a great weekend!)
Off to the sink.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
GOING TO COLD LAKE!
YAY!
I still don't know for sure when (or if it will be both of us or just me) I will be in Cold Lake... I am 'planning' on going down on Friday morning, and leaving Monday morning, but if Chris can manage to get either Friday or Monday off, then I will be leaving later and/or coming back sooner... We don't have insurance/registration on the sunfire to bring it down, (plus it would be very, very $$$$ to insure just for the one trip!) and so we will be trying to avoid taking 2 cars! (way too expensive.).
But if Chris only gets Sat/Sun off, then I will most likely going down friday morning and leaving monday morning... alone. :(
will update more once I find out...
B3
I still don't know for sure when (or if it will be both of us or just me) I will be in Cold Lake... I am 'planning' on going down on Friday morning, and leaving Monday morning, but if Chris can manage to get either Friday or Monday off, then I will be leaving later and/or coming back sooner... We don't have insurance/registration on the sunfire to bring it down, (plus it would be very, very $$$$ to insure just for the one trip!) and so we will be trying to avoid taking 2 cars! (way too expensive.).
But if Chris only gets Sat/Sun off, then I will most likely going down friday morning and leaving monday morning... alone. :(
will update more once I find out...
B3
Thursday, August 02, 2007
BITCHOLOGY
BITCHOLOGY
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way,
they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't compromise what's in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and
speak against it,
I am defined as a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid,
or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow
myself to be who I truly am and won't become
anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a
bitch.
When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a
bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way,
they call me a
bitch.
Being a bitch
means I won't compromise what's in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and
speak against it,
I am defined as a bitch.
The same thing happens when I take time for
myself instead of being everyone's maid,
or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow
myself to be who I truly am and won't become
anyone else's idea of what they think I "should" be.
I am outspoken, opinionated and determined.
I want what I want and there is nothing wrong with that!
So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame,
try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me.
You won't succeed.
And if that makes me a bitch ,
so be it.
I embrace the title and am proud to bear it.
B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself
B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman
B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything
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