What it's like to be chronically anxious?
I stumbled across this excerpt from a book I am fully intending to read when it comes out and I can get it @ the library.
It's almost disturbing to me how similar her words echo with how I feel sometimes. I feel pretty alone inside my head, and I can't really express it, because I feel like no one else really understands it.
Then I come across something like this, and I can't deal with the fact that there are millions of other people who know just. how. i. feel.
I'm terrified any time we go down any big hills in the car. (Not even that big.) I swear Chris is holding back from laughing and crying at the same time when he sees the look on my face when I see the hill, and hears the gasp.
The Gasp.
Sigh.
**This might post twice, I tried to post via email, but that so far hasn't worked, been a few minutes, and I am impatient to add the part I forgot to put in the first post I sent: The link. :) Been very absentminded lately...
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Horrays for evicted turds!
:)
I definitely have periods of anxiety and in retrospect, a lot of my university days could have been much better if I'd realized it and maybe got some help. Even if J is 5 minutes late getting home from work, I start to panic that something horrible has happened. It baffles him.
Yeah, I can't wait. I have a feeling they are going to fight it to the bitter end, and it might get nasty, but I am hoping that it won't. (Also still just trying to ignore it altogether.)
About the 5 minutes late thing, yaeh, that's me all the way, too. It's a little easier now when I know that he's not going to be off at a specific time, and he almost always calls when he's done, so I know.
When Chris starts going on the longer trips, it's going to be harder, because he'll be coming and going at all hours, and the hours are a big freaking question mark. He can estimate when he might be home, but it would most likely be easier to make dinner when I am hungry and just hope he'll be there...
:)
God, how I feel for you; just remembering the days/years I went through the same thing. Mostly to do with someone's drinking though
What had worked for me though, is being forced to develope a faith in someone bigger, greater and more loving than myself that looks after me and the ones that I love, and all things, if and when I ask
for help. prayer? In spite of myself it worked then and still continues. I see my life as a miracle. I've come to understand that lonliness and anxiety particularily hit youths the hardest. When you hav'nt had a chance to discover your true inner self, and to appreciate your gifts talents, strenghths, all those things within you that works to conquers adversity. But, mostly to know that even when no one is there, you are not alone. You are loved and cared for more than you
can ever imagine, including me.
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