Dealing Daily

 
Lately I've been thinking about the wedding even more than usual.
 
(I KNOW!)
 
The thing is, I'm not stressed. I am getting very emotional though. (Considering how I reacted* in the Bridal House when I got my dress, I anticipate bawling the whole week before the wedding.) I have been listening to a lot of music lately, trying to figure out what to have on our "please play" list, and any preferences we might have for certain times throughout the night. When certain songs come on, not even love songs or slow songs, imagine "DJ Play My Song" by Jully Black, I picture the wedding and everyone having a good time, and dancing and then I start to tear up. I get shaky for a few minutes and have to calm myself down.
 
* Cried a few times. Like all out "mom-get-over-here" overwhelmed. The first dress did it. Then THE DRESS did it. Then later thinking about the dress did it.
 
Again, not stressed, just excited and CANNOT WAIT!!!!
 
The control freak in me is starting to come out, and fortunately so far I have been able to tame the feeling, and I sure hope that I will continue to be able to. I am getting the urge that I want to do it all myself (how ass-backwards is that?) and knwoing that I can't is really popping up in my head more and more.
 
I also want to do it all now, to be prepared as early as I possibly can, just so that it is done. I started to look at the floor plan for the reception and wanted to start planning some things, like seating arrangements, table arrangements, etc. but as Chris pointed out, it doesn't make sense to plan for any of that until the RSVP's are in... duh.
 
I think it's just that I've been dreaming about this for so long, and it seems like I've been planning it forever, so much so that I am TOO excited! I think I need to take a step back and start to meditate or something. The whole thing is getting to be a little too much for me to handle. (Getting overwhelmed easily again - see above re: dress.)
 
It's become a "several-times-daily" thing for me to think about the wedding, some aspect of it, the ceremony, the reception, the cake cutting... and get excited...
 
I can't wait. I can't even think of what to say, thinking about it has me so babbly. (See above.)
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In other news, our place is a little neater, a little cleaner, got the second bedroom setup and over half of the boxes that remained in it have been sorted, the other half are scattered in the living room awaiting sorting and putting away.
 
We also have 2 boxes (out of like 10) of clothes and towels to go through. We've gotten rid of SO MUCH stuff since we moved into this small tiny apartment, and couldn't be happier* about it. A lot of stuff has been donated to the thrift store in town, some stuff has been set aside for a garage sale thing that is hapenning the same weekend I am going to Cold Lake (23-27? ish) and some stuff I thought some people might like has been set aside into a "to-bring-to-Cold-Lake" pile, which is getting rather large.
 
*Another reason why I am hesitant to 'register' for stuff for the wedding. We literally DO NOT WANT OR NEED ANYTHING!!! We honestly and truly just want everyone to be able to make it, and have a great time while they are there. We only want to celebrate with the people we love, and don't want to end up with more stuff we don't need. I have gone back and forth on this a few times, because, obviously we could update our kitchen stuff a bit, Chris hates the plates and glasses we have, but I love them. We could use new towels that match better (light blue and burgandy so do not!) but we don't need them. I looked at some stuff at Stokes, and could totally register there for a LOT OF STUFF. I could completely restock my kitchen in that store. (And would have so much fun doing it, too.) 
 
I guess, since Chris has been cooking a lot more lately, any kitchen stuff we get would be for both of us, not just me, but still. We've made do with what we have for over 3 years and don't see the need to change it all. (He made me a really awesome fettucine alfredo, completely out of the blue, and tried to keep me out of the kitchen and the meal a total surprise, but I snuck in and kept peeking... I was so excited that Chris was cooking for me!)
 
I am torn on the issue of registering. If I did, it would end up being at like 3 different stores. Definitely Stokes. And I have no idea which two others. One with towels, I guess. Maybe one with picture frames- see below. Can you register at Michaels? (Just kidding! Sort of.) 
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If I can figure out how to post pictures from my cell phone onto my blog (not available in Canada yet) or even to flickr (same deal) I will be posting daily pics, and man, I wish I could. Also, woman, I wish I could.
 
I have probably about 16 Gigabytes of pictures to wade through to post, and the thought it almost enough to cause pain.
 
I take more than I could ever have enough time to sort, let alone printing my faves and getting them framed or anything. (I want so badly to be able to put framed pictures on my walls... Not just my own, there are some certain family members who have taken some awesome shots I would love to have framed, as well as this guy who has some of the most amazing pictures I've ever seen. (He also has them posted under a creative commons license, and to clarify, I emailed him to ask if it would be okay with him if I was to print some of his pictures for my walls to hold. He is super nice and said yes, and I can't wait to have the $$$ to have this one printed. And this one, this one, and this one! I think I have about 50 of his pictures listed in my favorites on flickr, and man, if I had enough walls (and $$$), I would totally cover them all with pictures, not just from him.
 
I love pictures as much as I love music, and I LURVE MUSIC!!!! If I had to choose a sense to lose (of the 6 - cause I believe there are 6) I might have to make it taste. And I love food, too.
 
But I could live without tasting food again, but not so much without hearing music, or seeing. Definitely not those two. I know that taste and smell kind of go hand in hand, but if I could still smell but not taste, I could be okay with that. I couldn't live without touch, though. I live for hugs. :)
 
Lots and lots of hugs!
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BUT, I should go. I am trying to figure out a way to play a bunch of music that I have on my computer through Chris's speakers (he's at work - YAY! And it's a 'yay' only because he's been laid off for a few weeks. He's worked a few days here and there, but not regular by any means.)
 
I am going to sort a few boxes tonite before I go to bed. I am sure there is plenty here that is "my crap" to sort, stuff that Chris would just end up asking me what to do with it anyway, so I might as well do it!
 
:)