Here's a thing that was posted on both of my aunt's websites, and 'sent' to me:- Total number of music files on your computer? umm, I don't own a computer, but Chris says before he met me, there was probably 13,000 between his two, some copies, and now he figures maybe 20,000. He copies a lot of discs, and we download sometimes.
- The last CD you bought was? Avril Lavigne's second one, about a year ago
. Put it this way, I had long since memorized all of the songs before my family's vacation in June?July?
- What is the last song you listened to before reading this message? "Elevator muzak" Or at least that is what I call it. That is what was playing at work while I was still there an hour ago.
- Name five songs that you often listen to or mean a lot to you. Sorry, I can't do just five. So here's my top ?__? songs, in order of which I remember them.
1- "Bittersweet Symphony" by the Verve or The Verve Pipe - I don't know which, it goes by both names sometimes...? Because it brings out the passion in me for life, and all things in life.
2- "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls. Because I love it. It is sad, but uplifting at the same time.
3- "The Reason" by Hoobastank, because it has the potential to make me cry and sing at the same time.
4- "Take On Me" by A-Ha, because it is the song that is connected to my earliest memory: My Father, sister and I were sitting in the waiting room of a hospital, and we were there to bring my brother home for the first time. Unfortunately, I cannot remember if my Mother came home that day too, or if she remained in the hospital. This song was playing on the radio. I figure that I only remember this so specifically because as I was growing up, the song was played hundreds, and I mean hundreds, of times, and I kept remembering the day in the hospital. I remember one of us girls commenting on how red he was. Probably my sister. She could probably talk more than me at that age. I would have been 2 years, 7 months and 5 days old on the day my brother was born. My sister was 5 years, 2 months and 17 days old. This is the kind of thing I like to figure out when I am bored...
5- "My Immortal" by Evanescance" because it is a great, soul stirring track.
6- "My Way" by Limp Bizkit. Because I always liked it, and a few years ago, my sister dubbed it my song in regards to my mother, because I was such a stubborn and rebellious teenager. (Mom, Dad, I love you and respect you so much for the way you raised me!!! I am sorry for the stress and worry, and probably grey hairs that I caused you. Please feel free to fill my (future) children with sugar before bringing them home to me as payback. I will understand.)
7- "Beautiful" by Christina Aguilara, because I love her voice, most of the time, and this song makes me feel how I think all women should feel about their appearance: proud and happy. (not to mention satisfied, too many of us are controlled by our ever present thoughts of how we are not good enough compared to (fill in the blank). I have to say that I hate that about us women.
8- "Until It Sleeps" by Metallica. Just cause I like it.
9-" The Unforgiven" by Metallica. Because it reminds me of certain periods in my past, back when everyone else told me, that I was doing something wrong, that I shouldn't have been with who I was. But I learned a lot, and I still care for that person a lot, but more for who he was than who he is now. I am sure that most of my family realizes to whom I am referring. And if he is reading, I am sure he also realizes it is he I speak of.
10- "Stairway to Heaven" by Led Zeppelin. Who hasn't slow danced to this song? Seriously. I have loved it since I first heard it. And yet, I can honestly say, and write that I have never, EVER, done any illegal drugs. Typically, so I hear, this was a hit among drug users. I had good friends that did, and they were great about not pressuring me, and once I declined, actually going out of their way to ensure I was not exposed. Fot that, I am glad.
11- "Hurt You So Bad" by CrazyTown, because it reminds me of who I was at one point, and what I had done to other people. It makes me feel guilty, and almost ashamed, but not really at the same time, because I am now me The Way I Like Me. And I had to get here somehow.
12- "I Just Want You" by Ozzy Osbourne, because it is another that reminds me of my past, and it brings me down to earth a little bit.
13- "Nothing Else Matters" by Metallica, because, DAMN they have some great songs. The three here are more ballads than rock songs. But they still rock.
14- "Love You To Death" by Type o Negative. See #'s 9,11,12,13 for explanation.
15- "Children" by Robert Miles, because it relaxes me.
16- "Lucky(in my life)" by Eiffel 65, because it's true, and I do 'thank you for this life', stolen from the song which is... now playing. I feel like I have been very lucky. Sure, I take a pill daily to keep from going all screwy, and I am a little overweight, and I have recently lost some people who were dear to me, and I don't have a job I love, and I live everyday knowing that I was the last person to touch Pookie alive, but I still have led a very happy, good life. I have my family, and they all have always supported me, and I cannot express in words how much I love them all, because even to try would make me cry, and is making me tear up right now. I have always had more than what I needed. On a side note, I have realized, thanks to the discussion I had with the lady that did a reiki treatment on me last month, that to continue to feel guilty about Pookie's death is only going to hold her back, that I need to let the guilt and with it, her, go. And it shocked me when she said that. But only because it is true. And I have let her go. I still miss her terribly, though. I will never again meet an animal that will teach me, and give me, so much. Besides Patches, who was a gift from Pookie.
17- "A Horse With No Name" by America. I grew up listening to this, and found it on CD, and love it still. Actually, any and all of my Father's records constitute one of my favorite songs. This is just one I can name. this song used to make us kids hyper, because we would dance around and sing along to it. It was fun. Great memories.
18- "I Will Remember You" by Sarah McLachlin (did I spell that right?) because it is such a great song. I would love to see her in concert.
19- "A Day Without Rain" by Enya, because I love this music too!!!
20- "The World I Know" by Collective Soul. It was a very passion inducing, and inspiring song, that makes me cry. There is a version of this song, where they took clips of WTC 911 calls, and commentary, and put it in there, and I have to stop what I am doing everytime I hear it. I have a copy of it, so...
I am going to stop there, because there's better things to do.
- Which 3 people are you going to pass this stick to and why?... Are they supposed to have a website to post it on? The only people I know who have websites, have already done this... so... I guess I will send it to:
1- Chris, because I don't send him enough stuff.
2- My Mom, because she is an amazing woman and Mother.
3- Nicole, because she's a great friend, with an awesome daughter.
Wow, I wrote a lot.
Life is good.
I am considering quitting my job, because I am sick of the way I am treated sometimes, and the atmosphere is not the best.
First of all the temperature makes it so that I have basically been sick since I started working there, even though I take (daily) a Women's One a Day Multi-Vitamin, B-50 Complex Vitamin, Calcium, and a Vitamin C or two. I basically work in a fridge. Seriously. 4 hours out of my 7 hour shift is spent in the cooler, setting up 5 pallets to be sent to other stores. This means I put packaged cut meat in trays, and stack the trays on pallets, and if I have time to, i label and wrap them, which is a very dizzying job. I know that isn't a word, but seriously, let';s see you wrap 5 pallets with a roll of thick saran wrap, and still walk straight and feel fine. Oh, and it's cold where you do this...
Second of all, some of the people are REALLY NEGATIVE, like a lot.
Third, I feel like no one there likes me. They are just so 'clique-y' that I feel like I am working in Middle-age-meets-high-school-hell.
Plus, it is only technically part time, 28 hours a week. 7 hour shifts, 4 times a week. I like the extra days off, until bills show up.
I am going for an assessment on monday to apply to work for an inbound call centre that provides customer service for two cellular companies in the United States. Technically, the call centre reps live in Washington D.C., or that's what they tell customers.
Because it is unionized, I may keep my present job, but with even less hours.
I haven't done my taxes yet and they are due by tomorrow. I will do them before bed tonight: I have Quicktax. Helps a lot!!! Also have to clean my apartement. Going to go do that now, I think.
Going to go now. Have to get my stuff done.
Wow, I sure do go on, this is 4 pages in Microsoft word. That's how I make sure I never lose another blog entry in the midst of typing it!!!
