http://itmakessense2me.blogspot.com/
This site is basically all about my religious beliefs.
So, yeah.
I probably won't update it as much as this one, but it's something different.
I have always wanted to own a business that I would call "Something Different".
Yeah. For those who don't yet know about it, I made a site I intend to hopefully use to update everyone on the anticipated two weddings that are currently being planned...
If anyone has any information I don't have yet, that I am allowed to post, please email me.
Here's that site's addy:
http://bridesandgrooms.blogspot.com/
Gotta go. :)
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Sunday, January 15, 2006
I have updated my Flickr.com page
If anyone ever feels like it, you can check my pics @
http://www.flickr.com/photos/theanykey
To see any of the new ones, or good ones, you have to have a sign in. The majority of my pictures have restricted access to my friends and family.
The link for my photo page is always on this page, somewhere on the right side--->.
Oh, here's a few pix for here, of my new haircut...
And, before you ask, if anyone would have, I didn't get it done at a salon. I actually did it myself.
More out of necessity than anything else, I started just trimming the ends, because they were irrepairably dry. Then, it just became a battle of evening it out, and trimming more because I didn't like the length.
Chris had to help me finish straightening it, especially in the back, because I couldn't take trying anymore!
Besides, if I'd have screwed it up much more, it would have been even shorter!
Here's another pic:
Me, and the greatest guy in the world!
He made me promise he wouldn't have to help when I told him I was going to trim my hair, and then he caved when I begged him to fix it for me... :)
Such a sweetie! He was even really nice about having to cut my hair. He started to ask questions like: "So, how was your day? What have you been up to lately?" just like a real hair dresser! Except he showed a lot more interest than most of my hairdressers ever have.
We ended up having a lot of fun, and we both like my hair like this, so it turned out to be a pretty good day!
And, one more, just for the heckuvit!
This one, I edited in Microsoft Paint, to get rid of the red sores I have all over my face.
You can kind of see them in the picture with Chris, above, but the flash nearly made them invisible!
I need to go talk to the Doctor about them, it's folliculitus, flaring up again. I had it about 5-6 years ago.
More emotionally scarring and self-esteem crushing than anything else.
<--- Notice I am smiling! I am happy.
: )
And to all a goodnight!
Don't forget to vote!
-B
http://www.flickr.com/photos/theanykey
To see any of the new ones, or good ones, you have to have a sign in. The majority of my pictures have restricted access to my friends and family.
The link for my photo page is always on this page, somewhere on the right side--->.
Oh, here's a few pix for here, of my new haircut...
And, before you ask, if anyone would have, I didn't get it done at a salon. I actually did it myself.
More out of necessity than anything else, I started just trimming the ends, because they were irrepairably dry. Then, it just became a battle of evening it out, and trimming more because I didn't like the length.
Chris had to help me finish straightening it, especially in the back, because I couldn't take trying anymore!
Besides, if I'd have screwed it up much more, it would have been even shorter!
Here's another pic:
Me, and the greatest guy in the world!
He made me promise he wouldn't have to help when I told him I was going to trim my hair, and then he caved when I begged him to fix it for me... :)
Such a sweetie! He was even really nice about having to cut my hair. He started to ask questions like: "So, how was your day? What have you been up to lately?" just like a real hair dresser! Except he showed a lot more interest than most of my hairdressers ever have.
We ended up having a lot of fun, and we both like my hair like this, so it turned out to be a pretty good day!
And, one more, just for the heckuvit!
This one, I edited in Microsoft Paint, to get rid of the red sores I have all over my face.
You can kind of see them in the picture with Chris, above, but the flash nearly made them invisible!
I need to go talk to the Doctor about them, it's folliculitus, flaring up again. I had it about 5-6 years ago.
More emotionally scarring and self-esteem crushing than anything else.
<--- Notice I am smiling! I am happy.
: )
And to all a goodnight!
Don't forget to vote!
-B
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Had two, now none.
Am jobless again. Got a call from the higher paying job the day before s'posed to start at coffee loving place, and called to inform them I would not be working there, that I had gotten another opportunity.
Got picked up this a.m., after very little sleep, and after a scary ride out to Wold Lake (I was the only person out of the 5 in the truck who wore a seat belt, driver was speeding, driving dangerously, distractedly), sat around awaiting the foremans availability to fill out the hire pack. During this time, I had to fight off anxiety symptoms, and when we finally started to go through the paperwork, they got worse.
After a few minutes of me trying to concentrate, it became uncontrollable, and I felt the overwhelming symptoms: nausea, cramps, claustrophobia(esp. with clothes near my neck), dry mouth, etc. The foreman asked if I had not gotten enough sleep the night before, and I replied yes, and that I have anxiety issues. I then asked where the washroom wsa, and he went outside and pointed it out to me. When I finally returned, the foreman's boss was awaiting to talk to me, and seemingly had already made up his mind about what was going to happen.
He asked some questions, most of them implying that there was no way he would let me work there after this, and after "we" came to the decision it wasn't going to work out, told me to go wait in the coffee trailer, while they arrange for a ride home for me.
I then got a ride from an older guy, who was very nice, polite, understanding and best of all a responsible driver.
All in all, I was gone from the house for 4 hours. Saw LOTS of wildlife.
On the way there, with the reckless driver, a huge buck ran across the road in front of the truck, which the driver thankfully noticed and slowed down for a bit afterwards.
On the safer ride back, I saw a cute little red fox in the ditch, cleaning itself. It was about the size of a small cat, but with a huge tail.
I then saw what appeared to be 3 deer in a field, running away from the road, but I don't think they were deer. They ran like deer, but were very dark in color. (It was daylight, so I could see clearly). Antelope maybe?
And then, I saw a different type of fox, reddish brown with a patch of white at the tip of it's tail. It was bigger too, but not much.
So, I guess there was good and bad today. Out towards Wolf Lake, there is a lot of trees, and this morning, they had 'hoar frost' on them, and then it started to snow. So the drive back home was pretty peaceful, and somewhat relaxing. I got nervous as we got closer to my house, because I knew I would have to tell Chris, and I felt embarrassed enough.
Thankfully, he is very understanding, and I love him for it.
So, back out tomorrow, maybe go back to coffee heaven, etc.
Oh, and my hair is short now... about shoulder length. I will try to upload a pic to post here.
There is just one more thing I feel the need to say, even though I can't say it aloud. I feel embarrassed that this didn't work out. I know that I am in debt, and that this would have been a great way to start getting out of it. I know that I have a 'medical problem' that apparently isn't going to go away, with or without pills. I just feel so alone, when this stuff happens.
I feel like I let my family down. They get all excited for (and proud of) me when I get a job like this, and then something like this happens. I just feel like they are disappointed in me.
I just feel like no one understands. Like I am characterized by my anxiety. Like no one believes I will succeed as long as I have these issues, that if I don't go to the doctor(s), I can never work through it.
So, yeah. I am happy, just depressed when I think of having to explain this all to people. Maybe I should just hand them the address to this page, so they can try to understand. I don't know.
Either way, I don't want to talk about it.
I've discussed it with Chris, and that's all I need. I'm good now. I 've moved past it, and feel better.
I'll try to upload pix soon.
-B
Got picked up this a.m., after very little sleep, and after a scary ride out to Wold Lake (I was the only person out of the 5 in the truck who wore a seat belt, driver was speeding, driving dangerously, distractedly), sat around awaiting the foremans availability to fill out the hire pack. During this time, I had to fight off anxiety symptoms, and when we finally started to go through the paperwork, they got worse.
After a few minutes of me trying to concentrate, it became uncontrollable, and I felt the overwhelming symptoms: nausea, cramps, claustrophobia(esp. with clothes near my neck), dry mouth, etc. The foreman asked if I had not gotten enough sleep the night before, and I replied yes, and that I have anxiety issues. I then asked where the washroom wsa, and he went outside and pointed it out to me. When I finally returned, the foreman's boss was awaiting to talk to me, and seemingly had already made up his mind about what was going to happen.
He asked some questions, most of them implying that there was no way he would let me work there after this, and after "we" came to the decision it wasn't going to work out, told me to go wait in the coffee trailer, while they arrange for a ride home for me.
I then got a ride from an older guy, who was very nice, polite, understanding and best of all a responsible driver.
All in all, I was gone from the house for 4 hours. Saw LOTS of wildlife.
On the way there, with the reckless driver, a huge buck ran across the road in front of the truck, which the driver thankfully noticed and slowed down for a bit afterwards.
On the safer ride back, I saw a cute little red fox in the ditch, cleaning itself. It was about the size of a small cat, but with a huge tail.
I then saw what appeared to be 3 deer in a field, running away from the road, but I don't think they were deer. They ran like deer, but were very dark in color. (It was daylight, so I could see clearly). Antelope maybe?
And then, I saw a different type of fox, reddish brown with a patch of white at the tip of it's tail. It was bigger too, but not much.
So, I guess there was good and bad today. Out towards Wolf Lake, there is a lot of trees, and this morning, they had 'hoar frost' on them, and then it started to snow. So the drive back home was pretty peaceful, and somewhat relaxing. I got nervous as we got closer to my house, because I knew I would have to tell Chris, and I felt embarrassed enough.
Thankfully, he is very understanding, and I love him for it.
So, back out tomorrow, maybe go back to coffee heaven, etc.
Oh, and my hair is short now... about shoulder length. I will try to upload a pic to post here.
There is just one more thing I feel the need to say, even though I can't say it aloud. I feel embarrassed that this didn't work out. I know that I am in debt, and that this would have been a great way to start getting out of it. I know that I have a 'medical problem' that apparently isn't going to go away, with or without pills. I just feel so alone, when this stuff happens.
I feel like I let my family down. They get all excited for (and proud of) me when I get a job like this, and then something like this happens. I just feel like they are disappointed in me.
I just feel like no one understands. Like I am characterized by my anxiety. Like no one believes I will succeed as long as I have these issues, that if I don't go to the doctor(s), I can never work through it.
So, yeah. I am happy, just depressed when I think of having to explain this all to people. Maybe I should just hand them the address to this page, so they can try to understand. I don't know.
Either way, I don't want to talk about it.
I've discussed it with Chris, and that's all I need. I'm good now. I 've moved past it, and feel better.
I'll try to upload pix soon.
-B
Monday, January 09, 2006
Got a job
And still hoping for a different one.
Not that I won't like this one, just the other one, that I just applied for, pays almost double.
For 4 on/3 off. Which would be excellent right now, so I could pack, move, clean!
Plus, when we move to Edmonton, I could just transfer to their Edmonton area office... Or however it will work...
Well, with the job I got that starts on wednesday, I get free coffee, and I could easily transfer to one in the city too. I just don't know if the city ones pay as good, or if privately owned ones would do a transfer.
Anyway...
free coffee should have been the biggest hint I could give, but just in case, for those who live here, there is now two of them!
Yeah.
:)
Drove out to Wilkie, SK yesterday(near Battleford, which is the 'old' Battleford. Basically same city, but on the other side of the river, is North Battleford), to visit Chris' parents and kitties... Met the kitties for the first time.
Sigh, I wish I wasn't so freaking allergic to them! Even with antihistamines, (been taking them for about 2 years straight this time), had a reaction, and we ended up staying long enough to go through his BABY PICTURES!!!
Then we went to Battlleford and had dinner @ BP's, and saw the movie 'Fun With Dick and Jane'. It was not really what I was expecting, judging by the previews, but was really good. I give it 4 out of 5 B's. (Don't ask, I don't know!).
Yay! GST check came in! Woot!
Soon, will have job, soon, will pay cell phone bill. Soon, will be able to afford more medication, sort of.
Hopefully, soon, will get the other job I was hoping to get, and will be able to afford to pay some of those nasty things I keep getting in the mail, oh yeah, they're called bills. Hate those things. They are really annoying. Why can't the government just develop some sort of tax that takes off a certain amount of your paycheque, depending on how much you make, and then not bill for essential utilities. Or stop privatizing things!!!!
(Or just kick Direct Energy out of Canada- weren't they kicked out of the states? Why are they allowed here?)
ANYWAY, random acts of bitchiness is over. For now.
Heh heh heh...
I am starting to wonder if Chris and I are going to have to rent a storage place, or if we will be able to fit all of our $#%! in my parents basement... We have thrown out a lot of stuff, and/or recycled what is recyclable, but still!
We seem to be accumulating more, seeing as how a large portion of the stuff we threw out, was stuff we got better handmedowns of.
Brr... I am COLD!!! My hands and feet are always freezing, yet my doc sez I have good circulation! Is this just a woman thing? It is really quite annoying, especially when I have both socks and slippers on, two shirts and a sweater, under a blanket, then still want to turn up the heat... I don't think Chris likes it either. Some nights, I would rather fall asleep on the couch all bundled up, than get up into the frigid air and climb into a cold bed!
I think I am going to go have a hot bath.
Hey, I am thinking of getting my hair cut, and want to try a new style, but can't think of anything to do to my hair. Can anyone suggest any styles you think might be good for me? (Hair is naturally wavy, usually tangly no matter what I do, and I would prefer something low maintenance...)
Any suggestions would be great, emailed photographic examples would be better!
Hope everyone is having a good year so far!
I wonder, should I start a website to detail the dual wedding updates?
I could get one started, and give the two couples the password, so they can update it too...
Hmmm... I have some emailing to do...
Goodnight for now.
Blaine
Not that I won't like this one, just the other one, that I just applied for, pays almost double.
For 4 on/3 off. Which would be excellent right now, so I could pack, move, clean!
Plus, when we move to Edmonton, I could just transfer to their Edmonton area office... Or however it will work...
Well, with the job I got that starts on wednesday, I get free coffee, and I could easily transfer to one in the city too. I just don't know if the city ones pay as good, or if privately owned ones would do a transfer.
Anyway...
free coffee should have been the biggest hint I could give, but just in case, for those who live here, there is now two of them!
Yeah.
:)
Drove out to Wilkie, SK yesterday(near Battleford, which is the 'old' Battleford. Basically same city, but on the other side of the river, is North Battleford), to visit Chris' parents and kitties... Met the kitties for the first time.
Sigh, I wish I wasn't so freaking allergic to them! Even with antihistamines, (been taking them for about 2 years straight this time), had a reaction, and we ended up staying long enough to go through his BABY PICTURES!!!
Then we went to Battlleford and had dinner @ BP's, and saw the movie 'Fun With Dick and Jane'. It was not really what I was expecting, judging by the previews, but was really good. I give it 4 out of 5 B's. (Don't ask, I don't know!).
Yay! GST check came in! Woot!
Soon, will have job, soon, will pay cell phone bill. Soon, will be able to afford more medication, sort of.
Hopefully, soon, will get the other job I was hoping to get, and will be able to afford to pay some of those nasty things I keep getting in the mail, oh yeah, they're called bills. Hate those things. They are really annoying. Why can't the government just develop some sort of tax that takes off a certain amount of your paycheque, depending on how much you make, and then not bill for essential utilities. Or stop privatizing things!!!!
(Or just kick Direct Energy out of Canada- weren't they kicked out of the states? Why are they allowed here?)
ANYWAY, random acts of bitchiness is over. For now.
Heh heh heh...
I am starting to wonder if Chris and I are going to have to rent a storage place, or if we will be able to fit all of our $#%! in my parents basement... We have thrown out a lot of stuff, and/or recycled what is recyclable, but still!
We seem to be accumulating more, seeing as how a large portion of the stuff we threw out, was stuff we got better handmedowns of.
Brr... I am COLD!!! My hands and feet are always freezing, yet my doc sez I have good circulation! Is this just a woman thing? It is really quite annoying, especially when I have both socks and slippers on, two shirts and a sweater, under a blanket, then still want to turn up the heat... I don't think Chris likes it either. Some nights, I would rather fall asleep on the couch all bundled up, than get up into the frigid air and climb into a cold bed!
I think I am going to go have a hot bath.
Hey, I am thinking of getting my hair cut, and want to try a new style, but can't think of anything to do to my hair. Can anyone suggest any styles you think might be good for me? (Hair is naturally wavy, usually tangly no matter what I do, and I would prefer something low maintenance...)
Any suggestions would be great, emailed photographic examples would be better!
Hope everyone is having a good year so far!
I wonder, should I start a website to detail the dual wedding updates?
I could get one started, and give the two couples the password, so they can update it too...
Hmmm... I have some emailing to do...
Goodnight for now.
Blaine
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
My Goals for January 2005
I CAN'T SLEEP!!!!!
Well, seeing as how we are planning to move into M&D's for a little while, until we get organized enough to move back to Edmonchuk, at least, I have decided to set some goals for this month.
So far, my plans are:
by Friday, January 20th, 2005 - Be packed
by Wednesday, January 25th, 2005 - Be moved out
by Sunday, January 29th, 2005 - Be done cleaning the whole house
on Tuesday, January 31st, at approximately noon, I want to transfer possession back to landlord.
Obviously, these are just general 'dreamed' goals. But, hey, stranger things have happened.
Well, seeing as how we are planning to move into M&D's for a little while, until we get organized enough to move back to Edmonchuk, at least, I have decided to set some goals for this month.
So far, my plans are:
by Friday, January 20th, 2005 - Be packed
by Wednesday, January 25th, 2005 - Be moved out
by Sunday, January 29th, 2005 - Be done cleaning the whole house
on Tuesday, January 31st, at approximately noon, I want to transfer possession back to landlord.
Obviously, these are just general 'dreamed' goals. But, hey, stranger things have happened.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
New Year's Resolutions
I was just thinking...
Has anyone made any New Year's Resolutions?
If so, please feel free to comment, I would love to hear them!
I usually make a few, and they don't last more than a few hours, because I make them so unrealistic, they are doomed to fail.
Maybe I should try something simple, like, keep breathing... or to chew less gum (I rarely chew gum as it is)...
Actually, what I think I would like to try as a New Year's Resolution is to actually do some of the research towards getting my acedemics upgraded, and my post-secondary started.
So here are some goals I will set for myself for 2006, and everyone, feel free to check up on them!
1- Research necessary grades/courses needed to become a kindergarden/elementary school teacher.
2- Find out how to, and start, upgrading classes needed.
3- Ask (and if possible, then do it) my cousin's fiancee if I might be allowed to kind of sit in with her kindergarten class a few days, and ask her about 8 million questions about her experiences with it, including when she went to school and stuff.
4- Ask my cousin, same as above, if I might be able to follow him to one, or some of his classes, as he is going to school to be a High school teacher, and I think I could learn from the experience. Again, if possible, arrange to go!
5- Be more positive, and learn to let go of the little things, and take everything else with a grain of salt or five.
6- Contact a career counsellor of some sort, who can assist me with the figuring out of exactly what I need/want to be able to accomplish some of these goals!
7- Get off my lazy butt and do it.
I have a funny feeling that number 7 will be the hardest, which in turn may or may not screw me over for the rest, but that is okay.
Gotta go now.
Again, feel free to comment.
:)
Has anyone made any New Year's Resolutions?
If so, please feel free to comment, I would love to hear them!
I usually make a few, and they don't last more than a few hours, because I make them so unrealistic, they are doomed to fail.
Maybe I should try something simple, like, keep breathing... or to chew less gum (I rarely chew gum as it is)...
Actually, what I think I would like to try as a New Year's Resolution is to actually do some of the research towards getting my acedemics upgraded, and my post-secondary started.
So here are some goals I will set for myself for 2006, and everyone, feel free to check up on them!
1- Research necessary grades/courses needed to become a kindergarden/elementary school teacher.
2- Find out how to, and start, upgrading classes needed.
3- Ask (and if possible, then do it) my cousin's fiancee if I might be allowed to kind of sit in with her kindergarten class a few days, and ask her about 8 million questions about her experiences with it, including when she went to school and stuff.
4- Ask my cousin, same as above, if I might be able to follow him to one, or some of his classes, as he is going to school to be a High school teacher, and I think I could learn from the experience. Again, if possible, arrange to go!
5- Be more positive, and learn to let go of the little things, and take everything else with a grain of salt or five.
6- Contact a career counsellor of some sort, who can assist me with the figuring out of exactly what I need/want to be able to accomplish some of these goals!
7- Get off my lazy butt and do it.
I have a funny feeling that number 7 will be the hardest, which in turn may or may not screw me over for the rest, but that is okay.
Gotta go now.
Again, feel free to comment.
:)
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